The "Ahhh" of the Great Return: Increading Diagnosis as an Earth-Healing Adventure

A friend recently called me a rebel.

I went down a rabbit hole with that word and arrived at some insight: Yes. I am. But you must understand that my "rebelliousness" is not for show. It is the distilled version of backstage grief-tending, shadow-alchemising, and a relentless inquiry into the truth of I AM. It is the refined clarity needed to move through life so we can build a world worth living in—one full of dreaming for our children. My posts are often written with weeping eyes, or a fire in my chest i can no longer contain. I am moved by life.

I’ve been a pattern seeker and a pattern disruptor since I was two years old. Today, I am looking at the pattern of Modern Motherhood, and I am calling it what it is: A Cage.

Freedom is all I care about. Our collective liberation.

Reframing the Label: From "Defect" to Prophecy.

For far too long, we’ve been told that a diagnosis—especially for the Neurodivergent folk, and Mothers / Women— is a "defect" in our wiring. A medical label to be managed, masked, or fixed. ENOUGH!

I allowed myself to go deeper...I tuned in. I saw humans gathered in circles, looking at one another with label tags stuck to their foreheads: “Hello, I’m PTSD.” “Ah, me too.” “I’m AuDHD and a burnt-out mother.” “Hey, me too.”

So, as my usual practice, I leaned in. I Tuned deeply into the wisdom of Arny Mindell ,the pioneer of Process Psychology about this "madness" for "diagnosing. Can it hold a prophecy at it's core? YES. It is our Deepest Dream trying to come Through!!

I gained an insight that these labels are perhaps multiplying right now so we can finally look at one another and say: “Ahhh... we are all in this together. Now we understand.”

There is DEEPER WISDOM in everything is a principle i have lived by in my whole life. For some strange reason, i always held the capacity to tune to the deepest Truth in Humans.

A PAINFUL YET KNOWING MEMORY

I recall having being beaten with cable by my father , im sat on my bed, touching tenderly the 3D scars on my thighs and a crystal clear voice " Forgive them, for they don't know". I have held the grief and rage of this young girl inside me, and i have bowed at the Vastness of her Spirit.

And it is up to us to make it HAPPEN. For this we need what i call CLEAN mirrors. Not therapists who reinforce a sense of need or brokeness , but those who can STAND when your fire is burning the most and still NOT Flinch. NOT seperate. These are the ones who have walked into their own inner fire...

Mother, Your "Maternal Rage" isn't bad behavior, I saw it in me too. It is the sacred grief of your ancestors and the Earth herself crying out for air through your lungs. Our nervous systems are simply reporting, with terrifying accuracy, that we have been severed from our original habitat.

I am NOT against diagnosis and actually my own ND diagnosis was the last piece of the puzzle towards my deepest acceleration of my spiritual developement . But I will forever be a champion of Hope, and Empowerement. This is all that matters to me.

In my work with the Ancient Mother Spiral (AMS), I am seeing a radical reframe: Diagnosis isn't just about your brain. It is a scientific signal of our deepest and most ancient attachment wound: Our illusionary separation from the Earth.

We are Wild Things in a Cage

Our "symptoms" are from this angle, prophecies.. We must truly come to now see that we are not "broken" humans; we are wild things living in a cage, and our grief is the most honest response we have. Through the lens of the Ancient Mother Spiral as a Decolonial Default, I see human bodies trying to survive in a world that wasn't built for the truth of what we are.

I am holding space for this truth. I always did, and I always will.

The Invitations: Holding Circles AND a RETREAT

My heart is on fire, ignited by a recent adventure with the Goddess Hera and her peacock. I feel a deep urge—a call from life itself—to host a Grief Holding Circle. This will be a spiralling space to sever the very wound that brought us here: Isolation. We will move into collective kinship. It is a space to unmask, to breathe, and to tend to the wound-led animal body of this Earth and our own skin. Inbox me if this is of interest.

 While I honor the depth required for a nervous system to say "I am here," I am more interested in the internal safety found when you finally allow yourself to be broken open. Fully.

the ERA of trying to hold onto everything is Dying. And Yes, we are still learning to HOLD space for SUCH intensity inside our ribs, but even this will be Graciously severed as collective suffering and polycrisis is deepening. We must NOW come together, come in circle, hold hands, CRY and WEEP together!

We are Walking Pilgrimages

In a world that is burning, I hold onto this with all my soul: We are not fragile things to be mended. We are walking pilgrimages. We are sages who must know when to turn the tables and when to sit in the silence of the olive grove. We must decolonize our minds until we realize that the ultimate refuge isn't a place we go—it is the land we already inhabit. This Earth. This moment.

The Invitation: Entering the Void

I stand in a threshold, life shows me... and it feels ackward but i m left with no choice but follow the crumbs. My ego wants to fight and hold onto the leftover remnants of the identity of "therapist". .. but something else deeper is emerging...again...

I am no longer so invested in "safety" as a form of politeness or avoidance. I am interested in the internal safety found when you finally allow yourself to be broken open. Fully.

We have treated our inner worlds as fragile glass boxes, when we are sages who must, like Jesus, know when to turn the tables and when to sit in the silence of the olive grove.

TWO INVITATIONS FROM MY HEART TO YOURS

I am calling the Mothers who are tired of the performance. I am hosting two CIRCLES to gently point you in ways so you begin to stop being the wave (ONLY) and start being the sea: The Ocean. For this we must first slow down.

1. The Mother Alchemy Circle (Online)

Starting 23rd February 2026 bookings are now open. This will be held Mondays 23rd Feb 15:00-16:30pm.

It is a weekly, clinically-informed sanctuary to turn the "lead" of daily burnout into the "gold" of presence. We weave the Ancient Mother Spiral (find more here) stillness and contemplative inquiry, poetry ,story telling and Somatic Informed Space Holding. First circle is still ongoing. Typing this a thought emerged "shame i dont yet have any testimonials" and THAT moment one came in so here you go :

‘Working with Maria has been both comforting yet confronting! Her warmth, compassion and gentle inquiry shone through at a time when I needed a steady hand, to help navigate the confusion and inner chaos I was feeling. I felt safe in Maria’s presence, like someone holding my hand, reassuring me to explore the inner depths of who I am and how my self limiting beliefs and actions kept me from truly believing of what is possible. Envisaging a new truth, seizing opportunities for change, born from a wider realisation of the powerful universal forces at play, helped me relax and soften into a less anxious, more assertive, confident version of me no longer requiring to carry the guilt and shame of the past, present and future. This enabled me to feel liberated in my choices and decisions, helping to shape what I truly believe and want from life, on my own terms.

I am forever grateful for the opportunity to have with Maria. Truly recommend her to anyone ready to take that next step of deeper self reflection and discovery. It was for me a rewarding experience, spiritually meaningful in its transformation, a true ‘out with the old’ and ‘in with the new experience’

From Eleni A

2. The Radical Reclamation (Crete, Greece)

1st – 6th October 2026 A deep descent into the Ancient Mother Spiral. We will move together on warm Cretan sand to stop the "outward" spin of the world. My own mother will be there, nourishing us with traditional food and family wine, as we realize that the ultimate refuge is the land we already inhabit. Free Wine and Spa Gifts too!

[Explore the Crete Retreat] and our VENUE

A Note on the Spiral

The shape of a galaxy is the same as the shape of your fingerprint, and the same as the Ancient Mother Spiral. One is the universe expanding; the other is the soul returning home.

Your children don’t need a perfect mother; they need a whole one.

I am returning to my homeland to be of service to you. My heart is on fire—ignited by the Goddess Hera and the wisdom of the Dark Mother—and I want you to catch it.

Will you join me in the "Ahhh" of the Great Return?

With love and presence,

Maria Presence-Centered Psychotherapy

“Our own pulse beats in every stranger’s throat.” — Barbara Deming